My own season

Spring is here..

Ah that’s my season-season of love

They say.

Loving things living and non living

Loving everything close and away.

Love hurts ,they say

But nothing can hurt me I bet.

Too happy and always shall be happy

No matter what I lose and get.

You can’t make me cry today

As you see me laughing like mad.

Nah..I’m not a poor insane girl

Spring’s also for me

Only because I’m not bad.

It’s the season of love

Not the season only

For flowers to bloom.

It’s the season for pure souls,

To bring in new colours

And drive away the gloom.

I am a loner

Not with “Somebody”.

That can’t mean

I can’t love.

Spring is here..

Ah that’s my season..

I wanna only love,love and love..

Why

I saw him standing

Right under the sunshine..

Even the fog couldnot hide him.

But slowly he diffused

Into the fog itself

And never agin could I see him.

Who was he?where is he?

What magic his eyes had?

Came to set questions before me

The answers make me feel

Nothing more than mad.

Captured that moment in my eyes

And the feeling in my heart.

Dnt knw if it was it solace or ecstacy..

But definitely a story unheard.

It wasn’t a feeling to be touched

Kissed or embraced.

A feeling just to see.

A question for him ofcourse:

“Do you know me?”

No time for question

No time for answers either.

The flowers of the tree,

Shading us,

Has just started to wither.

Goodbye my friend

As you mingle into the crowd.

The crowd-

 of which you were born.

Without you couldn’t I be forlorn

Neither could I be happy

Nor could I mourn.

Come back to me

Only when I know

You are just mine.

Neither a friend nor a foe.

Come back to me

Only when I don’t feel
guilty feeling for you.

These feelings are not for all

Only for one,not even for a few.

Till then,

Goodbye my friend

As you mingle into the crowd.

The crowd-

 of which you were born.

Without you couldn’t I be forlorn

Neither could I be happy

Nor could I mourn.

We parted finally

Nothing lasts forever,

Not even the greatest feeling in this world.

Once I’m gone,

You shall never feel it again.

I know it wont hurt your heart so hard.

I love you more than love sweetheart

But I just can’t afford to get hurt.

Moving away from you with memories to cherish.

All my feelings towards you shall perish.

Feel like cutting my heart out

Throw it away to some place away

Away from you and your place

The root of all affection and care…

It needs to bleed,rot and decay.

I need to live

I have to live

For my heart resides in you.

I will leave soon

But don’t know if my heart will leave you.

Floating away the roses

Kept them only for you.

Now they belong to none

Not even for someone new.

A mark in my life

And a wound that seems never to heal

If this is not love

Then tell me how does it feel?

Correct question but to the wrong person

I don’t need the answer anyway.

Walking out never to be back again

As I go “I will miss you”…..

This is all that I have to say.

I hurt my heart

My heart spoke to me

A calm voice it had.

Asked me what I want.

A simple question

Yet no answer…

My heart, I just cant….

Are you happy?

No I’m not

Are you in love?

A little or a lot.

Be happy

And choose the lot.

Love’s not for me

That’s what life taught.

My heart was hurt

A sweet little fool it was,

Silent since I failed…

Through the vast oceans of feelings

All alone it sailed.

The monsoon feelings...

Washing my heart and my soul,

The water of heaven cleanses my skin.

The Monsoon has come once again

Making me fall for love –the sin.

I dance under the trees

Holding there swinging arms.

Drops from leaves,kiss my cheeks,

I’m the slave of such charms.

Flashing its pearly whites

The sky grins at me

Blinded by its own lights

To the darkness it has to flee.

I spread my arms

Submitting myself to the moment.

The moment of feeling

The feeling to let go of all ties.

Everything around giggles at me

Only smiles and no more cries..

Lost in some surreal world

I lose the sense of being earthly.

Why shouldn’t I?

Such ecstacy on Earth is

Just so unlikely!

The sun peeps suddenly

Silencing the vain thunders.

Stopping my thoughts

Causing an inner blunder.

Oh! Monsoon..

What an illusion are you?

Drops of rain or just a feeling?

Moments making you retreat back to clouds...

Leaving the earth, once again, ailing.

What makes me

I am a poet

A very ordinary one..

Singing love ballads afterall.

Ballads of my love for a man

The reason for my rise and  my fall.

I am a lunatic

Living a life of illusions

Making up different thoughts

Creating weird visions.

Tending to look for people

Who don’t exist….

Overlooking those

Who perhaps care the least.

I am a sinner

Who sinned for a million times

---------sins judged by men

They said I crossed the lines.

Three qualities of mine

Make a “self” for me.

Three qualities of mine

Carves  a lover out of me.

Letters,songs,life and you

I wrote many letters to u
I hoped to send them someday.
Days ,months and years passed,
The letters remain unsent ,the same way.


What the letters had?
I myself don’t know…
Just scribbled whatever came in my mind!
I wrote them but never read them
For the letters were not mine.


Some pages must have turned yellow
The ink must have also faded.
I dare not open them once,
Not to face the words that I have avoided.


Would you read them for me today?
Or tomorrow?or any time your are free..
No you wont,
Coz those letters are written by me.

I sang too many songs all alone
Noone could hear them.
They were for me and you,
For the wise and the insane.


Yet you could never hear them,
Where you not wise?Not even insane?
Oh no!I did sing them to you,
But may be my voice was tied down by a chain.


My chained voice dissolves into the air
But I cannot just simply disappear…
Would you free me off the chain,
To whisper the song into your ear?


Letters,songs,feelings and heartbeat..
All are the same.
They have filled up empty spaces of my life
And given my life a name.


The name is “Love” ,
And it’s lame without you
Yet my crippled life is strong enough to live
And again my strength is only you.