Not for me

Searching the earth
I lost what I had
What i got,
I lost in the sea!
Breathing the air,
I got fire in my heart ..
And I learnt ,the world is not for me!
Setting myself beneath the sky
I tried to be free...
Feeling the wind move fast above me,
I tried to reach hell!!
But even death was not for me.
Now am here standing
below the sky..
Below me the earth i can see..
Even fate has turned its face away
Noone knows what is for me!!
(May be purgatory)